About 2 months ago, an quarterly CT scan revealed that my cancer was growing... but which one? A biopsy subsequently revealed it was my lymphoma not my melanoma which was good. However, the lymphoma growth was so large that my Oncologist suspected it had changed from small cell to large cell which meant more aggressive and a stronger set of drugs to fight it.
This wicked chemo had set me on my butt about 10 years ago and I ended up in the ER numerous times during the 6-month treatment protocols. I was not looking forward to that at all.
A more robust lab analysis was ordered, gene sequencing, and the fact that the test was ordered indicated that something major was suspected.
Yesterday, I met with my Oncologist after about a month of worrying and was told that all results indicated that the lymphoma was metabolically active BUT NOT GROWING and not changing or transforming into something else.
My Oncologist was relieved and could not understand why I was worried especially since in my mind, he had previously been worried. I was not sure whether to be happy or sad because of my emotions.
My Oncologist had shared what he should never have shared with me until after the fact and while he had not actually seen me for several weeks, it was more the NPs that did the sharing...
STAY THE CURRENT COURSE OF ACTION... he said, and I will see you again in a month when you come back for treatment. Previously, it was every other month that he saw me... so, he is obviously worried about something that he is not sharing.
I am 75 years old and realize that if I live another twenty years which is my goal that I will be lucky... I am confident that I will live to 80 but after that, I am not sure... AGE is a solemn awareness of eventualities, especially when cancer is involved.
For 15 years, I had remained positive, and I need to continue that positive attitude for another 15 years.
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