Epiphany

 

I had a triple bypass level heart attack event in 2008, and in 2009/2010, had my arteries cleaned out and five stints inserted into three arteries including the LAD.  In 2021, I had an abnormal result on my nuclear stress test and a heart cath was performed that resulted in a pristine outcome.  

Ever since then, I have been experiencing extreme nausea and extreme dizziness and fainting while standing at the toilet.  These events happened once or twice a year.  Last Friday they happened several time, I ignored them because I felt better but on Saturday, I experienced this same scenario while sitting and went to the clinic...  the clinic sent me to the ER and the ER admitted me to the hospital for a stress test.  

The results were again abnormal, so in the hospital I remain until tomorrow, when I am having a heart cath performed.  They may find another pristine situation or they may insert another stint.  No doubt the Car4diologist will adjust the dosage of Metroprolol.

At 78, I have also been in ongoing treatment for non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma (starting my 18th year in Jan 2026) and melanoma (starting my 14th year in Jan 2026), along with L2-L3-L4-L5-S1 being fused 3 years ago, needing a knee replacement, and rotator cuff issue on both shoulders.  

Getting old is NOT FUN.

But the point of all of this is that...  NO MORE...  will I worry and trying to accomplish something...  or try to impress my family... or think I should change my rebel ways or sarcasm.  I am who I am and that is not my problem.

It took me 78 years and some health issues to realize that...